Saturday, March 19, 2005

3:08 PM

yesterday...yesterday...yesterday...
yesterday was a day full of mixed feelings..there was fun, happiness, sadness..hmmm...went for drama last session even though im not a drama member..we had a 'meeting' abt future plans of MCC drama mainly..then we watched a video prepared by khaty for her drama sayangz..my face also appeared a few times in the video even though im not a drama member..it was so sweet of khaty..we had lots of fun..laughing..teasing each other..then after her speech, khaty asked us the graduating students out to the front to give a short speech..i din knw wat to say so i din say anyting..haha..den hakim the president said something abt me..that im always present for events even though im quiet most of the time..but even so, my presence is 'felt'..wahaha..mcm real jer..den tgh diri pt depan tu, ternampak pulak illya and noora nangis..alamak tkle angkat ar..pandangan mataku kabur sekejap..hehe..then we went al-ameen makan berdamai..really enjoyed myself..but deep inside i was actually sad..and to cover my sadness, i acted crazy..i was really crazy..sallehan also said i was mad..hahahahaha.....gosh, im gonna miss u all MCC darlings........ :'(

♥ bisikan hatiku ♥ @ 1:44 PM

the....veterans..? 

♥ bisikan hatiku ♥ @ 1:17 PM

sekarang... 

♥ bisikan hatiku ♥ @ 1:16 PM

dahulu... 

♥ bisikan hatiku ♥ @ 1:11 PM

yok makan yok!! 

♥ bisikan hatiku ♥ @ 1:09 PM



Wednesday, March 16, 2005

my IBS standup presentation has jz ended..lemme tel u..it was BAD..i wasnt prepared..alot of "erm.." and "er.."..i suddenly had no idea of wat to tok abt..haiz..i din sleep jz to prepare ppt for this final presentation..i went thru alot..i was akcli in pain since the evening at mcc chse and the pain gt worse at night..dunno whr i placed my painkillers..even if the painkillers were available i wudnt want to take it anw..hehehe..i had to redo the ppt bcos the one i did was out of point..jauh tersimpang dari guidelines..haha..lpas tu da buat2, pc plak BOOM..abes..gone..redo again..luckily i gt encouraging frns like Noora and Lavanya and Huijun who accompanied me thruout the nite till early mrng at msn..Lavanya, Huijun and i kept checking on each other's progress..comparing hw many slides we gt and wat selling pts we hav..smakin pagi smakin kurang man00sia pt msn..smue man00sia rajen jer yg online..hehe..rajen terpaksa..buat pojek..i tink mrP oso was doin IBS till early mrng..met him dis jz nw..his IBS was at the nx classrm..he was oso wearing formal..encem noh.. ;).. hmmm...afew more presentations to go and then i cn leave dis classrm..i cnt b bothered to listen to the othr presentatns..mtg syira ltr to pass her stuff..aft tt..dunno whr to go..mayb i go hom slp or spend time w nad at chse..my initial plan was to study in sch aft IBS but i din brg any studying mtrls to sch..tgh kelamkabot i jz packed my lptp n left for sch dis mrng..din evn bothr to put on makeup for presentatn..hahaha..nurul askd me to eat w her aft IBS but im nt hungry at all..da mkn bnyk pagi buta tadi..nk keep awake punyer psal..kjap2 mkn..abe tu bukak radio dgr citer hantu biar yanie tk tertido..hehehe..HAIZ...actually..se-actual2nyer..i cnt stp tinking abt it..hav i made a mistake??did i make the same silly mistake as before??pls..pls tell me no..contact me..prove to me..dun lemme gt hurt again..i wun b able to take it anymore..im nt in the best of mood these days..all bcos of it.....oh god, pls hlp me..i wanna b happy..i dun wish to go thru it anothr time..no.....

♥ bisikan hatiku ♥ @ 9:52 AM



Tuesday, March 08, 2005

adoiii..!! stress to the max laa!! tkle angkat.. jz 3 more wks?? real anot?! so fast meh?? aiyo.. stress, stress, stress!! im stil sleeping.. falling far behind.. sum1 pls hlp me.. bro..! sis..! whr r u?? hlp ur helpless sis!!

♥ bisikan hatiku ♥ @ 12:42 AM



Saturday, March 05, 2005

Oh dunia ini
Penuh kepalsuan
Oh mungkinkah tiada
Keikhlasan
Apakah ini
Suatu pembalasan
Ku sedar kebesaranMu Tuhan

Aku bagai seorang
Kembara jalanan
Terumbang ambing
Di lautan gelora
Mencari kebahagiaan
Dahan untuk menumpang kasih
Mungkinkah suratan
Hidup kau selalu keseorangan

Hati membeku mengingatkan
Kata janji manismu... oh...
Ku dilambung angan-angan
Belaian kasih sayang suci darimu
Oh kejamnya

Lidah tidak bertulang
Ucapan cinta menghiris kalbu
Ku kan pergi membawa diri
Cinta di hati terkubur lagi

Tidak ku fahami
Mengapa terjadi
Peristiwa pahit mengguris hati
Jalanan hidup ini
Sudah tertulis
Kutempuhi dengan kesabaran
Kusedar kebesaranMu Tuhan...

♥ bisikan hatiku ♥ @ 4:02 PM



Tuesday, March 01, 2005

not bein myslf dis few days..byk termenong..haiz..feel like crying EVRYTIME..wanna juz cry & nvr stop..tink i prefer it tt way..

♥ bisikan hatiku ♥ @ 12:48 AM